I have been thinking about updating my blog with my 2018 Karwachauth pics but the lazy girl in me has delayed it and now the year 2019 has embarked upon us .So finally I thought that its not high time but over time that I did!!!
I Love the color green so to match with outfit I have colored my eyes green with HUDA Beauty Gemstone Obsessions Palette .I have to say I love this palette.The colors are gorgeous to say the least.Check it out for yourself.
For my face I have used Becca Aqua Luminous Perfecting Foundation. I love this because it's very light. It does not give you much coverage but I like it because I don't like to use heavy foundations.It evens out your skin and adds a glow to your face.
I am using Clinique Gel Liner which is okay. Infact I feel l'oreal could have sufficed.
I have used minimum makeup and only accentuated my eyes because I am a fan of eye makeup.So there you go to finish the look I added a hint of blush on from I heart Revolution which I really like .It's in the shape of heart and very pretty to look at and looks great on the skin!!!
It was love at first Sight!!! Far from a distance I saw this Sharara Suit displayed on a mannequin and knew Instantly that I had to have it. I was captivated and mesmerized!!! As I closed the gap between me and my desire . I visualised myself wearing this stunning piece of creation and feeling like a Queen!!! So without second guessing I bought this beautiful creation from Rang Roop, Ludhiana. And boy did I feel like a Queen!!! I thorougly enjoyed wearing this beautiful garment and felt like a dream. And received tons of compliment which further added to the beauty of my day. Lol😄😄😄
Thank You "Barbeque Nation" for Inviting us; a family from the Indian Defence Force's for a lovely dinner and honouring us on India's 70th Republic day .We had a great time and very much appreciate your love for the forces!!! Wishing " Barbeque Nation" a rocking 2019. Keep the love flowing!!!
Feeling reminiscent about the time that I was working as a "Boutique Manager"for the Queen of Indian fashion "Ritu Kumar".Some good times and some not so good!!!! One of those days when me and my girls were in an upbeat mood.!!!!! Sales Pressure girlfriend........phewwwwwwwwwww. We girls rock!!!!
Diwali-the Festival of lights is the time when you get together with your friends and familiy and celebrate the victory of good over evil by lighting Diya's !!!!!!!!!!!!!. Wear your finest of clothes and eat lots and lots sweets!!!!!!!!!!!! Yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is how I celebrated Diwali 2017!
Anahata – (Thinking to
herself) What a day man. I desperately need a breath of fresh air (looks at her
watch) Oh good………………. it’s time to go home. Enough excitement for a day! I can
handle only so much. She looks around the office and everybody seems to have
already left or must be busy else where. Anahata collects her bag from her desk
and finds a message from Zorawar that he won’t be able to drop her today as he
has urgent work. (Shrugging her shoulders) Good I can walk home today. (Smiling)
A stroll on baga beach will do wonders for me .I love it when the wind blows
through my hair and water flows beneath my feet . Nothing is more beautiful than that. And the sound of the ocean and the
wavessssssssssssss. It’s all so delightful. (Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh) I am going to
sit by the beach and watch the sunset. And let go of all the tension and stress
of today (Anahata is already feeling so relaxed. A sense of calm washes over
her.)
As she steps out of the academy.
(With hand on her head ) Omg…………………………………. How could I forget ……………………….I have
to call Kaya (her best friend in Delhi) and confirm with her when she is coming
to Goa. As Anahata looks for her mobile to call kaya……………………..
She is so focused on fishing out her mobile from her bag that she is unaware that Ryan is standing next to her.
Ryan - (With hands
folded around his chest and smile on his lips) What’s up
Anahata-(taken back
and with both hands on her heart ) God………….Ryan, you scared the bejeezus out of
me. Where did you suddenly conjure from? (Rolling her eyes at him) You gave me
a heart attack! Anyways I thought that
everybody left. What are you still doing in the Academy?
Ryan-(Running his
fingers through his hair) Yeah……………………………..I am just coming back from a meeting
with a client.. (Teasingly) So ………………………. You want to update me about the
highlights of your and Shawn’s meeting with Mr Fernandez?
Anahata-(Making a face
at him) No I don’t……………..thank you for asking. I don’t want to think about it.
I have much better things to do then talk about you know who.
Ryan-(looking at her)
Really………………like what? (Clearing his throat and touching the back of his neck )
Listen(Slight hesitation)…………………I was thinking if you would like to go out for dinner with me
tonight……………only if you are free. And it’s just a dinner. After all you have to
eat and so do I. So……………………………………………..what do you feel.
Anahata-(With her
mouth hanging open with surprise) You are asking me out for Dinner? (Biting her
lip and suddenly remembering) Weren’t you supposed to go out for a coffee with
Sanam in the evening today?
Ryan-(Looking
surprised and raises his eyebrow) Who told you about that?
Anahata-(both hands on her hips)
Who else but Sanam. What happened to that?
Ryan-(Mumbling to
himself) Women………….can’t keep anything to themselves.(Shrugs his shoulders)
Apparently, she is busy with something and can’t make it today.
Anahata-(sarcastically)
Oh………………how nice. I feel so special , now that Sanam is not available. You
are asking me out for dinner. Thank you, kind sir. But I will have to say no. I
have no Inclination to fill someone else’s shoes!
Ryan-(Laughing) Come
on ……………..Anahata. Do you have to be so melodramatic? It’s just a
friendly dinner.
You have to eat right. Might as well with me. You go out with Zorawar, Henna
and Monty all the time. So what’ the big deal
Anahata-(touching her
hair) That’s different………..they are all my friends.
Ryan-(Feigning hurt
and hand on his heart) Are you saying that I am not your friend.
Anahata-(looking down
at her feet) Of course you are.
Ryan-So…………………………………
Anahata-(Grudgingly)
okay fine.
To be continued.............................................................
(Adjusting his tie and gritting his teeth) Shawn looks at
Anahata and mumbles to her, it’s all your fault...............I hope you know that.
(Anahata gives Shawn a belligerent look) Really…………………………. you think I am to be
blamed? Shawn, you are Impossible. You started it all. I just wanted to talk to
you alright. But you…………………….
Mr Fernandez-(Bellowing) Anahata and Shawn……………………. enough
with all the histrionics. You guys have no respect that you are standing in my
office and continue to argue. I will not accept this behaviour. This is highly
unprofessional. Please maintain decorum in the office. I don’t care that both
of you have a problem with each other. Whatever it is sort it between
yourselves and if you can’t, take it out of the office. And Anahata, you need
to respect the fact that Shawn is senior to you. (Anahata trying to speak) I
don’t want to hear anything from you Anahata. This is my last warning to you.
Please get this straight both of you. Work should not get affected!!! You guys
are behaving like a bunch of animals. Look at the way you are fighting. You
should be ashamed of yourselves. Is this how professionals behave? .(Looking at
his watch) I don’t want to waste any more time so please…………..sort it out.
Anahata you can leave…………….. and Shawn you stay back, I have something to
discuss with you.
Shawn-(clears his throat) I apologise Sir and will make sure that this mistake
is not repeated. Ah……………….Sir can I Please step out for a glass of water.(Mr
Fernandez already absorbed in his work, nods his head in agreement)
(With her head hung low) As Anahata steps out of Mr
Fernandez’s office for the second time in one day, she is tired of all the
drama that has happened.
Shawn-(Laughing at her) Why are you always in the eye of the
storm Anahata. I pity you. (Sarcastically) Oh……………..actually I feel sad for you
right now. Poor you always being reprimanded by Mr Fernandez. You know you
can’t win with me right. Why do you even try it. Don’t you feel bad for
yourself. And none of your friends believe or support you. (Whispering) Yes I
did send that message but question is what are you going to do about it?. All
your huffing and puffing solves nothing. (Winking at Anahata) Babe…………………my
heart bleeds for you.
Anahata-(pulling herself up to her full 5 feet 5 inches)
Firstly……………………….I am not your babe. And I know, that you sent that
message…………..but it’s okay. That’s how you are. Your actions speak a lot about
your character. I feel sad for you that you have nothing better to do in your
life but fight a duel with me. Anyway……………..I have absolutely no Interest in
wasting my time and energy on you. So please get out of my way………………………………………..
Shawn-(Unfazed) Nice speech Anahata. (tsk tsk) Good luck and trust me
you are going to need it. Byeeeeeeeeeeee
Anahata- (flipping her hair with anger) Whatever
Shawn……………………………(mumbling to herself) Moron…………………..
Anahata looks up at
Ryan with Amazement. Feels like she is meeting him for the very first time.
Like she is being Re-Introduced to him. This electricity that she felt flow
between them is Indescribable. She has never felt current swirl through her
whole body before. This is so new to her. It is as if a bucket of cold water
was rudely thrown at her to wake her up from her deep deep slumber. She is
feeling overwhelmed with her new-found ability to sense this attraction towards
Ryan. It’s like she has connected with her body for the first time! To her she
is frozen in time and has no awareness of what’s happening around her. The only
thing that she is aware of is Ryan!!!! Rest is all lost to her. She has zoned
everything else out of her awareness………………………………In the midst of all chaos she
feels total silence all around her. She can’t seem to take her eyes off him.
What did she miss before that she in now tuning into?
Anahata- (Looking into
his eyes). Wow………………..Sanam was right. He does have hypnotic eyes. They are
like vortex of attraction. If you look long enough into them you might just
drown!!! There is definitely something about his eyes. How come I didn’t notice
all this before. It’s as if I am seeing a different Ryan all together. (Frustrated)
What the hell is happening to me?
Ryan-(Still holding
her hand) Anahata…………………………….are you all right? You look a little dazed. Do you
want a glass of water……………………………? (Anahata is still lost in her new-found
feelings) Don’t tell me you have zoned out again?
Everyone at the
Academy is aware of Anahata’s Habit of zoning out and they all tease her about
this.
Ryan-(Laughingly)
Hello Anahata please come back to planet earth………………………………Shawn is waiting for
you……………………….
Anahata- (Hearing
Shawn’s name and embarrassed that she zoned out) Of course not Ryan I am right
here. (Seeing her hand still in his) If he holds my hand for one more second I
am going to faint right here right now. She would have preferred to snatch her
hand away from him but that would be rude (Since when have I started caring
about being rude. Anahata rolls her eyes at herself) Ah………………. Ryan, can I
please have my hand back.
Ryan smiles at her and
lets go of her hand.
(Anahata looks at her
hand as if it has been branded. She can still feel the warmth of his hand). This
is Insane. I cannot allow myself to feel this way. I don’t even like him. What
are these feelings???? I hate these feelings!!! (Looks at Ryan) And he doesn’t
seem to be affected at all. I am making a fool of myself. I don’t care for Ryan at
all. And what about Sanam and his date? (Annoyed with herself) Who cares what
happened between them. I have to focus on myself. I think I am making a little
too much of this hand holding. It’s no big deal. God!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so
childish. (Anahata is relieved and smiles ) All right then. All good.
Anahata is happy that
she has convinced herself that whatever she felt meant nothing.
Ryan-Madam Anahata………………now
that you are back in your senses…………..need I remind you that you still have
Shawn to deal with……………what are you going to do?
Anahata-(Turns to looks
at Shawn)Oh god…………….I forgot all about that.
Suddenly Mr Fernandez
walks into the office. Clearly he is in a black mood
Mr Fernandez-(Angrily)
Shawn and Anahata in my cabin right now.
Anahata has murdered Shawn in her mind space a million times.
She has had it enough with him. This time he has gone too far………………………As she
steps out of Mr Fernandez’s office huffing and puffing with anger Zorawar,
Ryan, Henna and Monty give her a questioning look…………………..
Zorawar- So.................. why did
the old bat call you in his cabin (laughing).Aur tujhe kya ho gya itne gusse
main kyun hain ( What Happened to you. Why are you so angry?)
Anahata- Zorawar you
won’t believe what just happened. That maniac Shawn sent a message in my name
to Mr Fernandez that I love him…………………………………… Do you know how embarrassing this
is for me?
Zorawar(Laughs)-oh that message…………………. yeah, I have also
received that message two times but I knew that it’s not from you. But are you
sure Shawn sent the message?
Anahata (Her mouth drops open in shock)
What???????????????????????? You have also received the same message??? And you
didn’t even bother to tell me. Are you crazy!!!(Anahata
is feeling hurt now………. she didn’t expect this from him) How could you
do this to me Zorawar. You should have told me yaa. I thought we were friends. Of
course, it has to be Shawn-he is the In charge of Internal Messaging System and
I know that his Intention was to create misunderstanding between Me and Mr
Fernandez. God knows to who else he has sent this message (Anahata shivers with dread)
Anahata- (Looks at
Ryan and Monty) Did you guys also receive this message in my name?
Ryan- (with a twinkle in his eyes ) Unlucky me, I didn’t
receive any such message. Did you Monty?
Monty- (trying to suppress his laughter) Nope………………neither did
I
Anahata- (looks suspiciously at Ryan and Monty) Do you guys
think this is funny?
Monty just can’t control his laughter. He is now clutching
his stomach and laughing hard. Ryan looks at Monty and bursts out laughing.
Zorawar and Henna join both of them. Anahata gives them a look of exasperation.
Monty-(Now rolling on the floor with laughter) Come on Anahata
it is a little funny . Think about it. Ha ha ha ha
Ryan- (laughing) Lighten up Anahata. You are taking it way
too seriously.
Anahata- (looks angrily at Ryan) Thanks for your advice Ryan.
Nice to know that you guys find this hilarious. You guys are so Insensitive. I
thought you all will support me on this. But no I was wrong. Forget it I don’t
want to talk to you guys. I’ll handle this in my own way.
Zorawar-Chill Anahata!
Don’t be so emotional……………………………we…………
As Zorawar is talking to Anahata…………………Shawn walks
in…………………………..
Shawn-Good Morning
Everyone…………………………………………….So Ryan what’s the Agenda for today………...........................................
Anahata- Shawn I have
to talk to you.
Shawn- (Arrogantly) What About? Not now …….………... And Anahata
it’s rude to Interrupt when two senior guys are talking to each other. Anyways
I am busy. I’ll call for you when I am free. Now be a good girls and get back
to work. Ryan and I need to discuss something Important. (Looks at Ryan
pointing towards Anahata) Unlike certain people who while away their whole day
doing nothing. I have lots to do. So Please…………………………………………………………
Anahata-(Turning a
shade of red and bristled at his tone) Don’t you dare talk to me in that tone
Shawn. Why did you send a message to Mr Fernandez in my name that I Love
him…………………………………..what’s wrong with you .Are you demented?
Shawn- (Starts
laughing) OMG…………………………………. you sent a message to Mr Fernandez that you love
him!!!!!!!!(looks at the team with a smirk) .What did I tell you guys…………..she
is crazy. I didn’t know you were that desperate………………………….You are such an attention
seeker. And now you are blaming me…………………………typical of you. And it would be in
your best Interest if you behave yourself and talk politely with me. I don’t
need to remind you that I am your Senior. So please behave accordingly.
Anahata looks at Monty,Ryan,Zorawar and Heena for their
support but none of them are Intervening. She is a little disappointed with all
of them.
Anahata- (losing all her cool now and shouting at the top her lungs)
I don’t give two hoots about you being senior to me. You are the ugliest human
being ever. I hate you. You are a sadist who likes to torture people. You are
disgusting. And I don’t care of your opinion about me. Go to hell!!!!
Things are fast getting out of Hand. Both Shawn and Anahata
are heatedly arguing with each other. It seems Increasingly likely that both might come
to blows. The rest of the team now Intervenes. Zorawar, Monty and Henna are
trying to Pacify Shawn.
As Anahata continues
to Rant and Rave……………… suddenly Ryan takes Anahata’s hand and pulls her to the
other side of the room.
Ryan- (still holding
Anahata’s hand) Cool down Anahata…………………………….please………………………….
A jolt of electricity
like no other passes through Anahata’s whole body. It feels like she has been
electrocuted by Ryan’s touch…………………………………………………………. To be continued......................
Anahata- What’s
happening to me……………. Feels like someone just squeezed my heart literally. How
does it matter to me that Ryan has asked Sanam out for a coffee date? I hardly
know the guy……………………I can’t fathom what the hell is wrong with me. Why Am I
feeling this way? This is all so strange. I am so confused right now (Anahata is annoyed with herself) To hell with Ryan and
Sanam and their stupid coffee date!!! Whatever!!! I don’t give a damn. (Anahata is sulking now).
Sanam- (Taps Anahata's shoulder) Babes………………………did you even hear what I said (Sanam
gives Anahata a hurt look)
Anahata- (Anahata comes back to the present and looks at Sanam and puts
a phony smile on her face. Should she stop talking to Sanam? She acted just like a bimbo infront of Ryan. But that would be so childish on her part. After all it is not Sanam’s fault that
Ryan asked her out. She is gorgeous . And who wouldn’t want to go out with
her. I would ……………if I was a guy. Sanam is a sweetheart. And It’s none of my
business anyways. ) Yeah………………that’s awesome Sanam. I am so happy for
you. This is so great. Have fun you guys. Listen I need to run now. I have to
meet Mr Fernandez (Anahata rolls her eyes).The old bat can really be cranky at
times(Laughs). See you later. And do let me know all the juicy details (Anahata winks
at Sanam and hurries off)
In the meanwhile
Mr Fernandez- (On
Phone) Anahata can you please come to my cabin. I need to talk to you
urgently!!
Anahata -Yes Mr
Fernandez. I will be right with you.
Mr Fernandez- (Clears his throat)Listen
Anahata I don’t know how to bring this up. But its Imperative that we discuss
this matter and clear the air between us.
Anahata looks at Mr Fernandez’s face. He looks troubled. His
face is a little red. Seems like he is feeling a little at unease. Anahata is
perplexed with all the secrecy and urgency of the matter. What has happened
that has Mr Fernandez worried so much. And what’s this about clearing the air?
What is wrong? Anahata feels a chill down her spine.
Mr Fernandez- Anahata
I have received a message from you on the Internal Messaging System. But I also
do believe that it is not sent by you. But someone has in your name. I just
wanted it to bring it to your awareness. Come I will show you the message.
Anahata-Message…………………….
what message. Sir, I have not sent any message to you on the Internal messaging
system (Anahata is bewildered. What is Mr Fernandez
talking about?)
Mr Fernandez clicks on
his computer and bleep now the message is screening
“Dear Mr Fernandez, I Love you. Do you
also love me”
What the f**** Anahata just can’t believe her eyes what the
screen is displaying. Her eyes widen with horror. She opens her mouth and then
closes it. She can feel her cheeks burning with mortification . She seems to have lost her voice. If only the ground beneath her would open up and swallow her!!!!Anahata is literally
dying of embarrassment. What must Mr Fernandez be thinking about her? How will
she ever face him after this debacle!! Is this supposed to be a joke? Who could
have done this to her? Who hates her so much to send such a message to the Head
of Marketing? Who could commit such a shameless act. Who could be so malicious……………………………….OMG……………….
Image of Shawn pops into Anahata’s mind space. No one but Shawn could have done
this. He is the In charge and has access to the Internal Messaging System and
he hates her. God…………………………………………. only Shawn can stoop so low.
Anahata- (With
unshed tears shimmering in her eyes) Sir, I am speechless!! But you have to
believe me that I have not sent you this message. Trust me sir, I can never do
this. I Know who has sent this message to you. It’s Shawn!!!!!!!!!!!!! He has
done this on purpose. Only he could have done this. He hates me Sir. And can go
to any lengths to embarrass me. (Anahata is on the
verge of crying. She is gulping down her sobs. She does not want to make a fool
of herself once again) Sir you have to believe me. I can never do any
such thing.
Mr Fernandez-Calm
down Anahata. I know this message is not sent by you. But you can’t hold Shawn
responsible for this. You don’t have any proof. I know you guys don’t get along
but I don’t think he will go these lengths to trouble you. Don’t worry. It’s
all okay. I just wanted you to know about this whole matter. Now you can get
back to work.
Anahata-Thank
you so much sir for believing me . But I am hundred percent sure that Shawn is
behind all this. You have to believe me sir……………………….
Mr Fernandez- ( Gives Anahata a look of Irritation) Anahata please get back to work now………………………………….. I don’t have any more time to waste.
As Anahata steps out of Mr Fernandez’s office………………………. She
is seething and grits her teeth in anger.
Anahata- I am going to
kill that Shawn……………………………………………………………………………….
Anahata met Sanam in
the ladies’ locker room. And took an Instant shine to her. It’s Sanams first
day in the Academy. She has just joined as an HR executive. The girl is gorgeous
to say the least. Stunning actually!!! She is so graceful. And conducts herself
so beautifully. Anahata loves her confidence; the way she walks, talks and
carries herself is just amazing. She has the poise and grace of a beauty queen.
And boy, does she have a body to die for!!! And so professional. She is
everything that Anahata wants to be like. They have really hit it off. Sanam
has requested Anahata if she can Introduce her to the Marketing team. Anahata
is more than happy do so. As both of them enter the Marketing Department; She
can sense the Interest of all the boys in Sanam. But obvious she is
beautiful!!!!!!!!!! But do they have to behave like Imbeciles????? They are so
excited and they are all over Sanam like a rash. How Irritating!!!! And what’s
with Zorawar; he is behaving like a total nincompoop in front of Sanam. He is
making it so obvious. Isn’t he in a relationship with that girl Ambreen???? What
does she care anyway? Let him make a fool of himself. Sanam of course is enjoying
all the male appreciation that she is receiving.
Anahata notices that
Ryan is very animated with Sanam as well. She can clearly see appreciation for
her in his eyes. They seem to be enjoying each other’s company. Sanam is literally
lit up like a Christmas tree as she talks to Ryan. He is giving her his full
attention. He is standing with Hands-on-Hip pose. Clear sign that he is
Interested in her. Sanam also looks coyly at him. Both of them are laughing at
something Ryan seems to have said. Anahata rolls her eyes and gives a look of
disgust to both of them. Oh god……………………………. Now they are flirting with each
other. How Annoying!!! But they do look good together though. Anahata feels a
strange sensation in the pit of her stomach. She feels a tug at her heart at all
the attention that Ryan is showering over Sanam. What is wrong with her!!!! Why
does she care that Ryan is Interested in Sanam. Suddenly Ryan lifts his head
and catches Anahata looking at them. Their eyes connect for a moment. Ryan
looks at her strangely. Anahata is horrified that she is caught staring at him
and Immediately breaks the eye contact between them and averts her eyes. OMG………….
how embarrassing!!! What will Ryan think now. God……………..she always put herself
in an awkward position.
Its been a month since
that fateful day when she met Ryan for the very first time. He is actually
quite a chill guy. Thank God……………he is nothing like Shawn-the dumb ass. He is
very easy to get along with. He is very focused. And has no sadistic tendencies
like Shawn. He believes in “Live and Let live”. Anahata likes working with him.
They get along well. Unlike Shawn he likes a positive work environment where
everybody enjoys working with each other. Just the other day Monty and Anahata
were having conversation where he mentioned to Anahata that Ryan comes from a
very conservative Christian Family .His family is based in Mumbai. He comes
from a business family. His family is well off. He could have easily joined his
family business but it is his dream to start up his own Marketing firm. He is
working at the academy for hands on experience. Anahata is really surprised by
this reveal because Ryan has never even given a hint about his social standing.
He is always very humble and grounded. Unlike that Shawn who shows off for no
rhyme or reason!!!!
Thank the lord, Sanam
is finally done with the Introductions. Seriously,Whats up with this girl. Sanam
has become Infected with the “Ryan” Fascination Bug!!! She is going on and on
about him . Gushing about how good looking, charming and charismatic he is. So masculine.
And how his eyes are so hypnotic!!!! And the way he looked into her eyes literally
melted her heart. Sanam is now starting to irritate Anahata. Hypnotic eyes??????
What does that even mean???? Anahata grudgingly agrees that Ryan is good
looking in a way. He is around five feet ten inches tall, well built, wheatish
complexion and has a good body. That’s about it. Nothing to lose your mental balance over!!! He is
alright. And what’s the deal with his eyes……………………………………………………………….
Sanam is apparently
very excited about something and is trying to attract Anahata’s attention. As
usual; Anahata lost in her thinking world suddenly becomes aware of Sanam’s
presence and her excitement is palpable.
Anahata:- Whats with
you Sanam. Why are you behaving like a crazy person. Seriously are you O.K?
Sanam:- Guess what Anahata………………………Ryan asked me out
for a coffee date!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I Said yes!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anahata:-What???????????????????????
Anahata feels as if someone just punched her in the gut………………………………………………………………………….
Oh, so this is Ryan
who has been on leave for last one month. Yeah, Zorawar did mention that a guy
called Ryan is expected to join back any time now. He did tell her that Ryan is
the senior most executive amongst them all. Even Senior to Shawn-the Moron. Anahata
just wants to get rid of Ryan right now. So, she acknowledges him with a
perfunctory smile and mumbles a disinterested greeting to him. She is just not
Interested in having an idle chat right now. She is not in the mood to play
nice and sweet. Also she is a little irritated with him for emphasising that he
is the Senior most executive.Whats up with that. Why did he feel the need to emphasise this fact. What
does he expect………………………….that she should Kowtow to him!!!!!!!!!!!! because he
is the senior most. As if she cares……………………………..She feels like sticking her
tongue out at Ryan and telling him to buzz off. Anahata is taken aback at herself for contemplating such a childish behaviour. God !!!!what has come over her!!!! She needs to project a professional Image and not behave like a petulant child. Ryan really seems to be bringing out the worst in her. Now, that all formal greeting
has been done with she can finally go back to her work and focus on the job at
hand. Senior most hmmmmmmmmmmmm…………………………………………….as if it makes any difference to her . Anahata
knows that she is being rude for no fault of Ryan but she is beyond caring. She
is feeling very dark right now. And also why is he looking at her with that
amused expression on his face. He seems to be unaffected by her haughty behaviour. This is enraging Anahata even more. So she says
her bye to Zorawar and gives a dismissing look to Ryan.
Once back at her
cubicle, Anahata observes that Ryan and Shawn seem to get along really well.
Shawn-the moron is genuinely happy to see him back. So is everybody else though.
Zorawar, Monty, Shawn, Henna they are all very happy and excited to see him. Oh
God………………………. this is so depressing. What if Ryan is just as demented as Shawn.
And since both of them are friends he is definitely going to bitch about her to
Ryan. And what if both decide to make her life a living hell at the academy.
Goodness gracious …………………..she can’t cope with another Shawn. If Ryan is
anything like Shawn-the dumb ass then she will definitely have to quit her
job!!!!!!!!!!!! One of the reason she picked up a job in Goa was to feel at
peace with herself!!!!!!!!!! And why did she have to behave like a bad tempered child infront of Ryan. He now has definite reasons to believe that she has a bad attitude. What is she going to do now??? Anahata's head is pounding now. She can feel a dull ache in her neck and shoulder.Her eyes are hurting with all that crying.Anahata is so tired with all that’s happened
today. She is totally worn out .She just wants to go home and have a hot cup of
tea. That would definitely relax her.
Its almost time to go
back home. Anahata is waiting for Zorawar as he has offered to drop her home.
She smiles at him as he approaches her. As they walk out of the academy
together Zorawar cracks a joke about the enemity between Shawn And Her .And how according to Baba Zorawar “Hate is
the First sign of Love” and Anahata can’t help but laugh at the absurdity at
what he is saying. Zorawar is so funny. He has such a great sense of humour.
But sometime he can be really dumb!!!! That day will be the day when the earth
stands still if this hate ever turns to love!!!!! No way, Anahata prefers to
die then even entertain this thought!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Zorawar tells her to relax
and not get so worked up . He is now giving her gyaan to not be so emotional at
the office. According to him she needs to be more professional and no more water works for God sake. She needs to grow up and stop being so childish. Anahata thanks him for
his lovely gyaan and waves goodbye to him. She is so relieved that she is back
in her home and finally this disastrous day has come to end. To be continued...............................................................................................................................
Today is a very
Important day for Anahata. She has a very crucial meeting with a client. Since
this is her first meeting she has to look her best. This is make or break for
her. She has to make a good first Impression. Anahata knows that she is a beautiful
girl. And when she walks into a room she makes her presence felt. She is five
feet five inches tall, slim and trim. Fair complexion. She has a beautiful, clear and flawless skin. long beautiful tresses that fall till her waist.
And her eyes are big and beautiful. She has been told many a times that her
eyes are so mesmerising. And the hazel colour of her eyes can melt anyone’s heart.
You can literally see what she is feeling at any given moment by just
looking into her beautiful eyes. She is actually quite transparent that way. Anahata
is a gorgeous girl. But she is not very comfortable with her feminity and tries
to downplay her feminine beauty most of the times. She is more of a Tom Boy. She
is not very comfortable with the male attention that she receives. So at her work place
she has decided to friend zone all the guys. No one piques her Interest
anyway!!!!
But today she is
really nervous. She is lost in her head right now thinking what to wear for
this meet. Finally, she decides to wear a saree as she has been told by Mr Fernandez
that the client is a little conservative. Also Shawn-the dumb ass is accompanying
her for this meeting. She just doesn’t trust him. God only know what plan he is
cooking up in his mind to make her life more miserable. Anyways,she will cross
that bridge when she gets there. Anahata looks at herself one more time in the
mirror and is happy with her turn out. She is on her way out to meet with her
client now. 2 hours later....................
Anahata just can’t believe
what happened in the meeting today. Tears are shimmering in her eyes. She just
can’t control her emotions now. How can Shawn do this to her. He completely
humiliated her in front of the client. He made her look like a fool. And now Mr
Fernandez is calling her Incompetent. What has she ever done to Shawn. Whys is
he so mean to her. Anahata goes to the ladies locker room and is crying her
heart out. She just can’t take all this crap from Shawn anymore. Anahata is
sobbing so hard that Henna tells her to get a hold of herself and not to get so
emotional. Her advise is “Shit Happens” . Move on!! Anahata dries her tears and
strengthens her resolve that she will not let Shawn -The Devil’s Spawn win. To
hell with him. As she re- enters the office premises with Henna. Zorawar and
Monty come to her and try to console her and advise her to not let Shawn’s
behaviour get to her. Mr Fernandez and Shawn are in an animated discussion.
Shawn looks towards Anahata and gives her that evil grin. Anahata looks at him
angrily and gives him a look of pure venom and looks the other way.
Anahata is angrily
typing on her computer…………………………she is still very disturbed with the events of
the day. She is physically present in the office but mentally else where. She is
in a very bad frame of mind.She is oblivious to what is happening in the
Marketing Department. She is feeling so lost and sad right now .Waves of
loneliness are flowing through her whole body. Everybody else is having a merry
time. Suddenly someone taps on her shoulder. Anahata is forced back down from
her head and into her body. Zorawar and Monty are at her cubicle with a guy who
Anahata has never seen before in the Academy.
Anahata shows complete
disinterest in the guy standing with Zorawar and Monty. She just wants to be
left on her own and not be bothered. She is actually being quite rude. The guy
looks at her with an odd expression. Anahata doesn’t know who the hell he is
and just wants him to get out of her face. He lifts his brow with an amused expression ; extends his hand towards Anahata and Introduces himself - Hi! I am Ryan. The
Senior most in the Marketing Department.
To Be Continued.....................................................................................................................
Anahata is fed up of this moron of a
guy Shawn……………………. he is such an ass. Since the day, she has joined “The Goan
Dance Academy” in the the beautiful city of Goa as a Junior Marketing Assistant he has made it his mission to
make her life a living hell. He loves to torture her and is always bitching
about her to Mr Fernandez who heads the Marketing department. Anahata is
repulsed by Shawn-the dumb ass. She hates him from the core of her heart. She
just can’t get it why he loves to trouble her so much. If the Devil ever had a
child Shawn must be it!!!!!!!!!!!! Just thinking about Shawn and the thought of
having to work alongside him is draining Anahata’s energy. In her whole 24 years she has never met someone as idiotic and stupid as him. She has a meeting
with a client and Shawn is accompanying her since he is senior to her and has
been with the academy for two years. Mr Fernandez has now decided that Shawn-the moron will be
mentoring Anahata!!!!!!!!!Oh what a nightmare!!!!
Why can’t Zorawar be her Mentor???
Anahata and Zorawar get along like house on fire. They work so well together.
They have so much fun. They are always joking and
laughing. They have such great camaraderie between them. Anahata really enjoys
working with Zorawar. Everything is so easy and breezy with him. No stress, No
tension at all. They get along so beautifully that the whole academy is
assuming that they are a couple; which is of course not true. Zorawar is
Anahata’s really good friend and they have a good laugh about this assumption of
people. Also to quote unquote he is in a relationship with this beautiful Muslim girl Ambreen and has his own problems
which he likes to drown in a drink or two. To damn with such regressive people
who can’t handle friendship between a man and a woman and want to label
everything. Who cares anyway what people think!!! Anahata has pleaded and literally begged Mr
Fernandez that Zorawar should be her mentor but Mr Know it all thinks otherwise
and feels they have too much fun and end up doing no work at all . Which is of course
not true. Mr Fernanadez is just a bloody sadist and a tad too scared of his
wife!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Or for that matter even Monty could
be her mentor. He is a decent guy. Monty has been long enough with the academy.
He knows as much as Shawn. Monty is very diplomatic. You will never find him meddling
in other people’s affairs. He likes to stay neutral. A little tad too
professional. He is always very calm and composed. He never take's side's. Anahata really hates this
about him. She feels that you can’t be neutral all the time. You can't be a thali ka baingan;na idhar ka na udhar ka. Its difficult to
provoke him into losing his control. He is not emotional at all. He is always in control. But he is a nice guy otherwisw. Whenever Anahata is frustrated with Shawn
her go to is Monty to vent her anger. Monty listens to her patiently and then advises her -let it go yaar………….this further antagonizes Anahata .But that’s how Monty is he is friends with everyone.
Then there is Henna who is apparently
Shawn’s Girlfriend. Yuck………….. how can any girl tolerate him. She is sooooooooooooo in loveeeeeeeeeeeeeee and she sees the sunnnnnnnnnnnn and the moonnnnnnnn in him. And also doesn’t mind sharing him with
her best friend sheena!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wow…………….love
knows no boundaries. Whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Babe you really can do better!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And yeah also there’s a guy called Ryan……………………………...who
Anahata’s not met as yet as he is on leave.
So Anahata is stuck with Devil’s
spawn Shawn for now...................................😓😓😓 To be continued.........................................
Like Always Anahata is
lost in her own world. There is this huge void within that she doesn’t Know how
to fill up. She feels like a total stranger in her own body. She is constantly
lost in her mind. A total disconnect with her own self. This feeling of
emptiness within her is so overwhelming that sometimes she wonders if she could
climb out of her body and just fly away to a no where land. She just wants to
switch off these heavy and overwhelming feelings and sensations within her
body. It’s so difficult for her to be just be present in the moment. She is
always leaving her body and has made a home for herself in her mind. There is total
mind and body disconnect. She is always lost in her thoughts. She just doesn’t
understand why she feels the way she feels. She is so tired of all these
feelings flowing through her. And none of these feelings feel good. They drain
and fatigue her. Her eyes reflect this inner emptiness. There is an innate
sadness in her eyes. She is always trying to hide her feelings from her friends
and family. She doesn’t want to bother them with her troubles. So, she puts a
smile on her lips but within she is totally messed up.
Anahata desperately
wants to fall in love. Her heart aches for the most beautiful man who has the
heart of a gold. She wants to be swept off her feet by a man like no other. She
wants a love like no other. She dreams of a man who will take her breath away.
A man who will love her, protect her and stand by her come what may. A man who
has eyes for her and only her. A man with whom she can sing, laugh, dance, cry
and stare deeply into his beautiful eyes. She wants to pour her heart out to
him. A man with whom she can be all versions of herself; good, bad and ugly!!!
No pretences. A man who is beautiful inside out. A Shiva like man. A man who
will give up his everything to just be with her.A man who will fill this void;
this emptiness within her. He will make her whole and complete!!!!
Anahata is a total dreamer………………………and apparently a little naïve and also watches too many holly and bolly love stories.Lol!!! Will she be able to find a Shiva like man or will she suffer a heart break like no other…………………………………………………………………………………………..
So this post is
Inspired by a friend who once upon a time gave me a compliment that still makes
me laugh so hard. And not because it was a beautiful compliment but because it
was the weirdest compliment ever.😂😂😂 Lol!!!
So flash back 16
years; we all friends were chilling at Chandigarh lake and having a really good
time. It was a beautiful and sunny day. Everything was going really well . I
was lost in my own world. I saw this beautiful horse grazing the grass and I
was admiring the beauty and the strength of the handsome horse. The lake looked
pristine. And then suddenly I was rudely shaken out of my Reverie when I heard
this friend telling me that Neha, look at that horse. Tere baal uski poonch ki
tarah hain( Your hair is like the tail of the horse).I was so shocked and so
offended😠😠😠😠. In my mind I was thinking kya yeh ladka pagal hain(Is this guy mad).How dare he compare my
hair to a horse’s tail. I was literally fuming with anger!!! And I was like I
am never going to talk to this guy again!! He is so bloody rude!!! Whats wrong
with him!! He is totally crazy. Simultaneously I am thinking in my mind how come
I end up with such weird friends😓😓😓. Karma I guess!!! I think I should drop him as
a friend like a hot potato pronto!!! Lol!!!!!!
I roll my eyes and ask
him why would you compare my hair to a horse’s tail😠😠😠😠. Do you want us to end our friendship?
You are seriously bugging me. Are you telling me that my hair is ugly? I am so upset with you right now. Like a budhha he turns towards me and tells me
observe the tail of the horse Neha. Look how beautiful and lustrous the tail
is. And that is why I am comparing your hair with tale of the horse. I was
blown away by the depth of his observation of the horse’s tale.😂😂😂 Lol!!!! And I
was like wow!! the tale is really beautiful!!!!! I never thought of it like
that. I am stunned!!
And suddenly I was
happy again. I can never forget this complement and it is like a beautiful and
weird memory between us. Lol!!! So whenever we meet we really have a good laugh
about the same. It is the weirdest compliment ever!!!! But I have to say also
beautiful in its own way. I guess I do end up with the weirdest friends.
Lol!!!!😂😂😂
Hey everyone……………today we have Invited a very
special friend of ours to Guest Blog for us. Everyone Introducing “Shweta Mehta
Thakur”. Shweta is an MBA and has 6 years of work experience in the Retail
industry. She has worked with some of the most prestigious National and
International luxury fashion brands. Presently she has chosen to be a home
maker. She is a mother to a very beautiful 1-year-old baby boy Goku .
Today we have Invited her to talk about her experience as a
modern woman in today’s Patriarchal Society. Shweta is somebody whom I really
admire. She is fierce, Independent, opinionated, bold and at times brutally
honest. She has a mind of her own. She stands up for herself. She doesn’t take
s**t from anyone. You don’t mess with Shweta!!! Lol!!! So go ahead …………….read the blog and give us
your feedback. And Thank you Shweta for being so brave and sharing your
experience with “ “Rebellious Grahinis”. We really appreciate it.
Shweta-You are most welcome girls. Well……. after
marriage specially in a country like India there is a lot of pressure to
conceive a baby…………..that also just after one month of your marriage!!!!! Your
Mother In Law keeps looking into your eyes just to hear one sentence ………… “
Mummy ji tabiyat kharab hain shayad main pregnant hoon”.Lucky are those who
conceive easily and effortlessy. But what if you are not able conceive even
after having been married for 8 years. The same people who chose you to be their
bahu and were elated once upon a time and thanked their lucky stars that their
son married a beautiful, educated and financially Independent woman. But how
scenario changes …………the same people now start having doubts about you and now
you are no longer a suitable bahu and a good wife for their darling son and
their family!!!
I have gone through this hell too……………….I was working then
.I conceived within first year of my marriage. Everybody was very excited and
so happy for us. Everything was lovely and beautiful. There was magic in the
air. Everything was perfect!!! But one day all hell broke loose…………suddenly I
was the black sheep of the family .And the reason…………………I Miscarried. I was all
alone in the hospital with only my
husband and my mother. My In-laws did not even bother to call me; leave alone
come visit me!!!!! Infact they blamed me that I was responsible for this
miscarriage because for me my career was more Important and I should have
immediately left my job the moment I conceived. I was going through hell ………….I
had just lost a baby …………..I was in pain and Instead of showing love and
compassion towards me I was held responsible. I was stunned to the core and so
hurt from Inside that how can people be so heartless. Sadness engulfed my
heart. I was like a zombie. I just couldn’t believe what had just happened and
how people were reacting to it. I didn’t say a word then. I was advised by my
husband then that I should not respond to this provocation………………….. and Infact be
good and nice to maintain the status of peace in the family. And I was also
trying to be the “Quintessential” good Daughter-In-Law!!!!
And so the pressure to conceive continued…………………. to
maintain peace in the family I left my job and followed my husband to another
city where he had just got posted. As luck would have I was pregnant again. But
during this time I lost my mother……………………I was really depressed, sad, grief
stricken. I was completely lost. So my husband advised me that I should go to
my In-laws place as they will really
take good care of me at this very Important time in my life .He said
that I should go as no proper medical facilities were available in the God
forsaken place. I said no that I don’t want to go and like a typical Indian
husband he told me that if this time something unfavourable happened then he will blame me for it. I just couldn’t
believe what I had just heard. This line haunted me to no end. I cried my eyes out………………I felt so alone and I
had no one with whom I could share these feelings as the only one person who
understood my pain;my mother was no
longer in my life. I felt helpless and powerless. So again to not rock the boat
of peace and calm in the family and be a good and obedient wife……………I decide to
go to my In-laws place. Intially everything was good………they were very happy
that I have come to them. But one day she asked me what do you prefer a boy or
a girl.I said I love girls and I am looking forward to bring a baby girl to
life. She just looked at me and was very very annoyed with my answer. And guess
what the very next day from her guruji she got some hocus-pocus medicine and
Insisted that I should ingest it. I firmly said no but everyone insisted that I
should I have it in order to conceive a baby boy. I immediately called up my husband
and asked him how on earth can a
medicine change the sex of the baby!!!!But his beliefs were very strong.
Obviously he was nurtured and nourished in that environment right from the
child hood…………..so you can’t expect someone to give up their outdated belief
system overnight.
I wanted to scream,shout,yell, hurl abuses but did none of it……………………..I cried the whole
night and prayed to God Almighty that one day my husband’s thinking would
change. Anyways to cut the long story short I ingested the medicine. I don’t know
what happened but within few days of taking that medicine I miscarried again.I
was really angry and told everyone that this was because of the bullshit medicine.But
again my Mother-In-Law blamed me that I don’t have faith in their Guruji ……………I
don’t go to temples……………I don’t chant mantras……..and moreover I don’t even know
how to climb stairs. And that was the moment I lost it and gave it back . My
husband was sitting right there and I told him straight away that enough is
enough .I AM not going to take this crap anymore.I AM done!!! You don’t like me
……………….I AM walking out of your life right this minute. I became fearless. Damn
with it all. I have suffered enough!!! I refuse to accept bullshit anymore. My
In-laws were happy that I was willing to let go of my husband.
But seeing my fearlessness something within my husband
changed……….he took my hands in his and told me to live the way I wanted to
live. No more pretending to be good. No more self-sacrificing. Because his
parents were never going to be happy no matter what I do. And he straight away
told his parents that he will not accept it if they blamed me anymore.He told
his parents that they have lived their life the way they chose to and now lets us live our own.
So many things changed that day…………………….I got my freedom. Freedom
to breathe. Freedom to be myself. Freedom to live the way I wanted to live. My
husband understood that I now no longer feared that my marriage will fail if I didn’t
live according to their rules and regulations. I realised that if you don’t
stand up for yourself then no one will. If you don’t respect yourself then no
one will.I am no longer into people pleasing. I have a a very cordial relationship
with my In-laws today. I realised that they are bound by their belief systems
and they were functioning accordingly. So I have forgiven them. I AM a much
happy person today. I don’t endorse self-sacrifice because it solves nothing.
It has always been my desire to live in peace and harmony but not at the cost
of my self-respect.
My father used to always cry whenever he used to listen to this song at someone's wedding thinking about me. I used to find it very funny then. And used to ask him...............why are you crying. My poor father used to get embarrassed and would scold me for making fun of him. But as life has it; he passed away before my wedding and never got an opportunity to cry on his own daughter's wedding day. And that makes me very very sad. I wish life had given him an opportunity to express his emotion for his own daughter that he raised with so much love.
This song is in memory of my beloved father who is no more. But we will always love him!!!! With this song I wish to heal myself from this great loss. Some losses are too great but heal we must!!!
So I was sitting and suddenly this word popped into my mind “Frozen”
and my mind showed me Madonna singing this song. It’s a beautiful song and the
picturistaion is even more beautiful and mysterious. I don’t know what came
over me I opened You Tube …..saw the video…..learned the lyrics, sang and
recorded the same. And then I asked my friend and next door neighbour Sanjana ….who
happens to be an awesome singer!!! How I sounded. She played my song on her brand
new JBL speakers and she said she liked!!!
Well……now I AM considering posting it on my blog just for
fun. I guess it’s the Mhow effect!!!!
Striving for Ideal Beauty can be very stressful!!! Who’s to
say what is ideal???? How do we decide what is ideal and what is not. Hmmmm…………………… tough. Media is always telling
us what an Ideal woman should look like. But media has has its own agenda’s!!!
Company’s want to sell their products at any cost and will trigger feelings of
unworthiness within you. They will bombard you with messages that you
are not good enough, not beautiful enough, not fair enough and to feel good
about ourselves we are persuaded to buy their products!!! Koi bhi cream laga
kar kaha koi aaj tak gora ho paya hain. But still we buy these creams in the
hope that they will make us fair and finally we can accept and feel good about ourselves. Things are not
automatically going to work out for you
if you splash yourself with this certain Talcum Powder!!!!( Har baat hogi poori
jab shurwat ho sahi) I have bought many
creams to get rid of dark circles under my eyes but no cream has been able to
help.
Beauty pageants are constantly telling us that you have to
be a certain size to even be eligible to participate in them. A true Beauty
pageant will allow women of all shapes and sizes to participate in them . Are they trying to tell us that women with
perfect 10 bodies( What is a perfect 10 body anyways) are the only ones who are beautiful, Intelligent, talented
and Interested in world peace!!! It’s laughable!!! Right
now only beautiful and supposedly perfect bodies are participating in these
contests. There’s no heart and soul in it.
It’s all about outer beauty. These contests do not empower women; they
only project that they are interested in women empowerment. True inner beauty
is not even a consideration!!!
Have you ever watched these reality show’s where they shame
women based on their bodies? Every time I cringe when they tell a woman that
your body is not good, you are fat, your bum is not of right shape, your thighs are fat , you are
not tall enough, your smile is not perfect. Are they a bloody piece of
meat???? If you are short in height you
can’t participate. Why????? You could be short in height but could have the
most beautiful heart and could be really talented, creative , have the most
amazing grand ideas and wait for it be
interested in………………………….ta da “ World Peace”!!!!
Why is height, weight, skin colour, even a consideration in
defining true inner beauty!!! Why are we so limited in our perception of what
true beauty is all about!!!! I guess we
have to redefine the meaning of “ Beauty” ourselves and not allow media,
company’s or some beauty pageant to define it for us.
